car accident changes my life

It’s been a long long year with a lot of ups and downs. There are many untold stories that I haven’t had chance to share with you guys. One of those was the car accident in LA that I got into right before moving to Boston for graduate school.

I was the driver.

I had a drink or two the night before.

It was 3am, I did not get enough sleep and I was reckless.

I was driving my close friend to the airport.

I lost control and the car crashed into the curve on freeway.

Broken glass everywhere. Airbag out.

I was petrified that I couldn’t even hold my phone to call 911.

There were a million “What if” spark in my mind.

What if I were DUI

What if something bad happened to my friend and  other people on the freeway

What if that was the last moment of my life, how my mom’s gonna deal with this

Ever since that day, I’ve realized how one single moment can change your life.

Suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder and depression, I took a break from the Internet. No blog. No Instagram. No Facebook. No Youtube.

I have decided to keep my Instagram and blog in my hobby drawer, something that I would do on the side.

I spend more time on things that matter, family, school, and friends.

I call my mom twice a week.

I spend hours in the library with classmates.

I hang out with my friends, put down the phone and have real conversations.

I read more.

I enjoy food without spending hours taking pictures.

I go travel and see places with naked eye, not through the camera.

I stop using too many filters on my photos.

I live in the moment.

Simply because social media is not real life. The number of comments, likes, and followers on social media don’t define you. Ultimately, we post stuffs online to curate what people think of us. Most of them, are strangers.

And from now on, no matter what happens, I’d remind myself that I’m a lucky guy. I’m still alive. There was a point in the past when I wished to have everything that I have right now. Even though I can’t have everything I want,  I am grateful for what I have and where I am at the moment.

If you are reading this, you’re lucky too. Cheers to the New Year and a new blank page of our lives.